More losses...

Ying Shien, our very young sister from Puchong Church has passed away from complications from a newly discovered bout of leukemia.

It is very hard for me to accept losing a 15 year old and I can't even begin to imagine what her family members are going through..

I didn't know her but she's Wee Ric's sister and I know him from youth camp 2 years ago. He is returning from Russia even as I write and does not know that his sister has passed away... so so sad. It is strange that although I didn't know her personally, I cried much. I can't explain it. Perhaps because she was close to Nancy's heart or that she was so young or that she was a youth or I am a mother.

This journey is I think, one of the hardest to bear for Puchong church especially. I was at the wake service and her dad was thanking the LORD for the 15 years that he had with her... Pastor Richard described it as a tug-of-war we had with God for Ying Shien and we lost... In a way, I feel the same, i guess..

I myself have been struggling with the thought of losing her the past weeks although the end was imminent only a couple of days ago... They only knew about the cancer 3 weeks ago and I never expected her to leave us so soon. Right or wrong, I just talked at God and continued to ask Him to heal her. I refused to give up till she drew her last breath. I wanted the LORD to prolong her life.. For a person who longed to hear God's voice, I stooped to not wanting to hear what God had to say but merely wanted to tell Him what I wanted Him to do!

Well, that is all i have energy to say about this for now.. I love you LORD. I just wish Ying Shien was alive and well again!