Some pre-birthday reflections..

1. Being a christian simply means that I have a relationship with God. I am a Christian.

2. My worthiness is not measured by my usefulness in God's Kingdom. I struggle with the idea that I am unworthy to receive from the Lord. Yet, through Christ I am made worthy.. This equation still boggles my mind.. it isn't easy for me to accept even though it is true. I am one who likes to be doing rather than be being.. I'd like to think that I am driven, although some may feel that I drive them up the wall! *tongue in cheek*

3. Quote from a good friend named Mary T Lee...."Number (one's age) is only a figure. The bigger the number, the more blessings we've received!" I think this is true.

4. I am really not big on birthdays. I'd like a quiet birthday. It's just nice to get a holiday every year and for that I am truly thankful! This year, I received a nice digital camera from my dearest of dears! Let's see if my photo taking efforts will improve!

5. I am still very much in love with my dearest of dears.... more so than ever before! It's a most wonderful feeling and reflection!

What is in my heart for the youth...

Lord, my prayer for the youth of today is that they...

1. Be firmly grounded on Your Word.
2. Be sincere worshippers who worship in spirit and in truth.
3. Possess a "tak kira" attitude in serving others and in blessing people.. "do what is good" (Titus 3: 1, 2, 8)
4. Have a smiling countenance (evidence of joy)
5. Are kind and respectful to everyone (evidence of good upbringing and healthy fear of the Lord) (Colossians 4:5-6 and Colossians 3:12)
6. Are serious about God (Titus 2: 6-8. 11-15)
7. Are doing things without expecting reward/recognition from man or God (immediate corresponding blessing in this life) (Colossians 3: 17 and 23-24)

And that they would walk with you all the days of their lives... Amen.

Being a leader..

This is what I think a leader ought to be.

1. Takes off pride (humble)
2. Kind
3. Real person (unpretentious)
4. Inspirational/encouraging (a must have!)
5. Good time manager
6. Articulate (good communicator)

I didn't get this from any book or am I planning to write one about it. Just that I think these qualities are so important to have, if we are to lead others.

Lord, let my leaders have all these qualities in greater measure. Lord, let me, too, personify that which I value!

The Atlas Syndrome...

Something I coined up to describe my great weakness...

Something I have been trying to avoid yet find so attracted to...

Something my heart says I should do...

Something that makes me feel alive and yet like dying, both at the same time...

Something the Bible repeated says not to do...

Something I fail repeatedly to see and acknowledge as sin...

As my Joel so rightly put as we sang "All things are possible" in church yesterday.. He said, "But mummy, nothing is possible except with God, trying to decipher why we were singing this chorus repeatedly without adding to it the words, "with God"!"

Lord, help me stop trying to be Atlas and allow you to work in and through me instead!

Eeeps, I forgot my username!

I have been away from my blog so long (plus the fact that "some people in my home" have been using my comp to access their stuff and thus wiped out my login info!!!!!) that i nearly couldn't get to blog!!! eeeesh!

Anyway, here are my updates:-

1. nephew getting hitched in South Africa early next year in a bushveld wedding! gotta decide whether we can afford to spend no less than RM20K to go and come back... bleh!

2. school hols are near and am gonna get kids to do some stuff for humankind.. or at least malaysians.. will see how that goes!

3. got TONS of books to read up. i re-heard Sy Rogers' testimony and was once again reminded of God's wonderful-ness as Sy talked about his own life and encounters with God. I think reading is so so so important and hearing other believers' testimonies are awfully encouraging and builds us up.

4. my to do list seems more manageable of late as I have actually been giving myself less ridiculous deadlines and tasks.. I think putting weight off myself helps me appreciate people, myself more.

5. feel more driven these days although i feel somewhat at a loss many a time..

this is my abrupt entry..